I just found out that Eisley is going to be playing Portland on the 22nd of this month, and that makes me super, super happy. The only problem is that the band that they're opening for, I really have no interest in. In this case, it's Hot Hot Heat.
This seems to be a common theme. Both times I saw Reggie and the Full Effect, I left after Reggie played his set. I can't remember who was playing the first time, Alkaline Trio I think(or did they play the second??), but either way, I usually leave after the band I want to see plays. Most people ask me, "Don't you feel like you're wasting your money?". I usually tell them, "No", hit them in the face with a brick, and then run away as fast as I can. I know it's a little unnecessary, but I don't have many chances to hit people in the faces with bricks, and that questions seems like as good a reason as any.
So yeah, I'm going to try and go see Eisley. I don't have anyone to go with as of yet, I asked Chelsi but she gave me the "We'll see" answer, so that probably means no. Whatever. I went to see KMFDM by myself, I can go see Eisley that way; it'd just be much more fun to go with someone else, you know? You know how seeing a movie by yourself sucks ass? Well a concert is way more worse. It's not that it ruins the concert or anything, but after the concert and before hand kinda sucks, cos you're just standing there. At least I am. I don't connect well with new people, and it's a bitch for me to talk to people I don't know. I can do it, I just don't like to. I'm weird like that.
There's a slim chance that I might be going back to school. One of the University of Maine satellites, USM, has an opening at their law library. I don't know what exactly I'd be doing, I've been told looking shit up for people and what not, but who really gives a rat's ass? They pay $10.65/hr and you're allowed to take two free classes a semester. Yeah. That's why I'm going. They could put me down in the catacombs of law or whatever it is they have in those buildings, I don't give a shit. That paycheck and the classes would put me on cloud 9 for at least a couple of months before I start hating the job.
I really don't think I'll get the job, but I'm supposed to stay positive. My mother told me that she read this book about vibrations and shit like that, and how negative vibrations(thinking negatively, I guess) will cause bad things to happen. I personally think that's crap, cos I've been thinking nothing but good things for myself for the past YEAR and my life has just gotten progressively shittier and shittier. I feel like I'm going to hit bottom, punch through, and then just keep going until I reach China or something like that. I hope I do reach China, cos I've never been and I hear it's full of Communists. I don't know if that's true or not, cos usually all I see on TV is Chinese people, and they really don't look like the Communists I'm used to from Vietnam and Rambo movies.
Hopefully I do get the job. Cos if I do, that'll be the start of an upswing and then maybe things'll get better. They certainly can't get much worse, can then? Well, they can, but that'd involve the loss of a limb or some other extremity, and honestly, I'll just kill myself. If I can't play video games or run away from a person much bigger than me after talking shit or masturbate, then what more do I have to live for?